took my breathe away...

a look at you leaves me wondering how could someone be so spectacular...

a look at you leaves me speechless,breathless,fearless.

the purity in your speech,the innocence in your eyes,the subtility in your nature.. could make the stars peep down to embrace you ..

your suaveness can impress a tyrant,your simplicity can acknowledge beauty,your aura can pacify a heart that is violent..

though i am broken but i can still live up to your memories...

i never title my poems.........

destined to be together,are those made for each other.
a soul finds its mate,to stay by its side forever.....
a genuine heart looks in all directions,to find a person close to perfection,
but when true love knocks,its not the time for selection but to feel the warmth in the most wierd person's reflection.
love turns a surly person into a different character all together,
you find a new you every time you meet "the" guy or "the" girl.
n you are always without reason when u are lost in ur own world .
surreal feelings surround you from all sides and u want everythng to be sweet n mild......
i thnk thts the way love is...
it changes u
but in a better person
always........

they just........

i fought with someone.we blabbered n sweared n heat was total on.at the end i was broken,shattered n a part of me was dead.
the tears made me to sleep......while i was crawling thru the long dark tunnel the last thing i had heard was the sound the drops of rain made wen they fell on the railing n on the large leaves of money-plant.the sound which came wen the cold wind hit the wind chime n the window pane..n the cold breeze tht was making me shiver ...n i wraped myself in the blanket i was lying on....
wen i woke up it was dawn.....n i don't know if the rain had stopped during the night but wen i woke up it was still raining...

but i could still revive my dream...n after all the fight...wen i imagine tht person smiling ,it makes me smile too n adds a lil life to the dead part of me......

i dreamt tht i m in this real cold region.it was quite similar to the place i visited wen i had gone on a school trip to manali...n the place was before rohtang-paas...
n the guy sitting beside me is him....humming his favourite tune ....baby i miss you......
behind in the car were two other people...i dont remember their faces..
he was driving the car quite fast .though the roads were slippery n i askd him to slow down.but lyk always he hates to listen to me.at a turn he made a rash-one n the next second the car was on the edge of a cliff....nothing filmi about it!!!
it was dreadful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was too freezed to give a reaction n the people behind were like shouting on top of their voices.....as i thnk it was a toyota n the people somehow rescued from the back door.....
the car tilted a little more....

"u r so beautiful",he said to me.
"quite a nice moment to say tht",i said sarcastically though i had noticed tht he had said tht for the first tym ever....

"it's my mistake tht u r in this situation",he said
"i know tht.but we can argue like always once we r out of this car",i said
he balanced the car n made me get to the back of the car n after a lil struggle,i was out.
i turned to him n said,"common,now ur turn"
the car slipped n i skipped a beat."i m nt coming out",he said
"ok now i hav had enough of this crap.give me ur hand ",i said

"i can't....m sorry....in no one i can come out,coz' either way,this car's gonna fall",he slapped the reply on my cold cheek.
the car slipped even more.......

"u knw wat,i always fought with u,coz i love u.i always made u cry ,coz i love u.i always said rude things ,coz i love u.weird??it is.........it was my way u knw.i want u to hav beautiful days in ur lyf......n i want u neva to forget me.....n i want u not to cry after i fall off this cliff coz' i hate those tears n one more tym i'll hate myself for making u cry coz u r the most beautiful girl ........the only thing i m hating is,i want to touch u for one more tym.....n i want to see my mom one last tym......."

"gimme ur hand.....please......u always give somthing to every beggar u see.consider me a beggar n give me wat i am asking for.please",i said
"i saw tht cute,wicked smile at the corner of his lips and he said,"sure"......"
he moved...n so did the car.....


"i love you .........."


when i had woke up i still had the tears in my eyes.........
though i didn't cry.......
they just............


i love him even more........coz now i was familiar with the feeling of losing him ....

i just got scared

i was just sitting n surfing the net .....there was a name in front of me n i suddenly got so scared of losing tht person tht scientifically speaking my heart started racing.........n my eyes became all moist n i was lyk i can't loose this person...i m not able to figure out wht it was......n yeah nyone reading this blog if gets to thnk tht the person here is my boyfriend thn...no he isn't..........


whats most weird is that such a thing has never happened to me before......

just a........

i can feel the drops of rain all over me......even inside ..touching my soul........

i can feel the frangrance of these spelndid rose in my nostrils.......n i m loosing myself

it happens sometimes that u dream about somthing so beautiful tht u want it to come true.....u wan illusion to get real....love is something lyk tht...

notice that i said something lyk love coz' love cannt be defined.......it can just be felt....

when in love people say tht a person goes crazy..u knw y coz' they even start believing wht not actually exists........

but tht doesn't matter u knw...coz love isn't just a cup of kheer its also sometimes a teekhi mirch...tht brings u back to the ground.......even while flying high in the sky....

i met someone today...it was accidental.i was going for a little walk in my colony ..though its real cold here...the winter's at it's best...but then too i just felt like going on a walk with myself.it was dark already and i was like packed in so many woollens ..it was very calm around as there was hardly anyone on the roads.i had the headphones in my ears n enrique was whispering some melody in them...suddenly i got this feeling that someone was following me...i halted!!!!!!!!took out the headphones n lookd back.oh my God! a black dog was standing right in front of me n thing is that i m very afraid of dogs..n without wasting a second i screamed!maybe he didn't like that!n he startd barking....and then i ran the marathon run......n the dog wasn't bad at it either.....bloody dog!!about 2 yards ahead i saw an old man what we call that........aag ke saamne haath taapna...ya that's what he was doing.....i assumed him to be a watchman.as he saw me he stood up n feebly came towards me....i almost bumped into him n was panting like hell....he saw the dog n understood the problem....he shooed him away..n i took a breath of relief....but as i wasn't very far from my place i requestd tht man to walk with me till home.n he did!!!!!n then was my life's best conversation......he told me about his grand-daughter...who was of about my age..n all that while he had thhis smile on the corner of his lips.he told me how she used to make him laugh n how even when her parents especially her mother i.e., that man's daughter stopped him ......she use to come to him n talk about the lil school in which she studied n things..n was probably the only source to light-up his isolation a bit...
as he had been getting older,the distance between him n his own daughter became wider...one bad day when his grand-daughter whom he affectionately called munni.....was coming back from home...a truck ran over her......n she died instantly....no one in the world was more grievd than this man.......
as days passed......the isolation startd eating him up n he ..left that house.....
it was about 3 yrs to this incident.....
i was standing on my gate but felt not to go...i wanted to hear him more...of other things in his life n his dead wife n his childhood but maybe he didn't wanted me to trespass his memories.......
he just said"jeewan mein kisi se bhi mat daro...siwaye is baat se ki kya khud mein itni himmat hai ki datt ke zindagi ka saamna kar sakti ho?mujh mein nahi thi....aasha hai.....tum khud mein jagaogi......."
i was too moved to say nything.
n he just turned n got vanished in the fog......
that simple but special-in-his-own-way man told me a lesson of lyf.....to be brave....to face things n the hardest blows......

it's very tiresome....

to wait for someone is really tiresome.especially when you don't know that eiher the person is coming or not....it's not like at the corner of the street,waiting for your friends after school,when five minutes seem like five thousand minutes,it's like waiting for the rain at a place which is the driest part of the world...but as i am a person with a strong faith on faith....i have brought an umbrella with me....

common let's hav a laughter.....

laughter..........some one has said that's a grreat medicine....but does anyone knows that why is that???well apart from the scientific perspective....i mean what it really do to you??well i have a slight idea........let me give an example....i was having bad days from the past few days and....nothing seemed good...i was likfe feeling low and felt like i am so aout-of -the-scene and i don't matter to anyone.and today i was online on a social network site and a friend had written a testimonial for me....it was very much unexpected and when i read the whole thing...i just burst into laughter.....rather i laughed continous for a 10 whole mins.there wasn't anything special about the testimonial but after reading that i thought came in my mind that while i was busy spending my life gloomy,someone was thinking of me......i mean the conclusion is that there is another side of the coin...we should never feel that life is like a deep pit we have fallen in and there's certainly no way out.but there is..you just have faith,enough to make you believe that even when you are alone,in real,you are not...God's there with you...and you are in that pit because...it may sound weird but maybe that way He wants you to experience something that will,in future at some point of your life would prove to be helpful...common its not philosophy...i am experienced.ofcourse i didn't fall in any pit...but...understand...life is that way...i haven't written a book on life but....it has been teaching me all the way.....
so,enjoy even the little things in life...you may realize later on that they were the big things...i read this line somewhere and its very true.......